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fabulous...3 days of blessed peace. with 'Allo-Allo', 'Babylon 5' 5th Season of course...
just rest..away from all noise...away from work...relax..
Tuesday, November 28, 2006
Sunday, August 20, 2006
The Part about Green Tea Ice Cream
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My sin has been found out...only Haagen-Dazs is able to steal me away...
Norain has her Ben & Jerry's...I have my Green Tea Haagen Dazs thank you very much. Strong Japanese Oo-cha flavour. Sweet mixed with a tang of bitter aftertaste. No other greentea flavoured ice creas is comparable...not Gelare's not even Shangri-La hotel's !
Already have I finished one tub on my own during a few occasions. Next I'll think i'll experiment the other flavours... I know that their strawberry is not too sweet and it has a natural flavour to it. Or maybe go for killer chocolate??? hmmz
Oh heck...b-dae is coming...think i'll snog onto a few tubs for breakfast, lunchie & dindin. To heck wif the diet plan for the one dae...i know fa'sure i'm entitled to sinning it out...
My sin has been found out...only Haagen-Dazs is able to steal me away...
Norain has her Ben & Jerry's...I have my Green Tea Haagen Dazs thank you very much. Strong Japanese Oo-cha flavour. Sweet mixed with a tang of bitter aftertaste. No other greentea flavoured ice creas is comparable...not Gelare's not even Shangri-La hotel's !
Already have I finished one tub on my own during a few occasions. Next I'll think i'll experiment the other flavours... I know that their strawberry is not too sweet and it has a natural flavour to it. Or maybe go for killer chocolate??? hmmz
Oh heck...b-dae is coming...think i'll snog onto a few tubs for breakfast, lunchie & dindin. To heck wif the diet plan for the one dae...i know fa'sure i'm entitled to sinning it out...
Thursday, July 13, 2006
The Part about Letting Go
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Letting go of SJAB-I've finally resigned my posts of NHQ CPBS Controller & NHQ Development (CPBS) Committee Secretary. Will be resigning from my position as Dy Zone Youth Affairs as well. I will be for purposes...a officer without duties and portfolio...
Freedom does taste good-not doing anything, not having people depend on you al the time anymore and not having to argue with stupid silly old farts. Waste of my efforts, waste of my time arguing over issues which matter greatly but they seem to take their time to wait and wait and wait. Their reasons being political, petty ans self-serving. Well i've had enough of this organisation. It seems it doesn't value our efforts as volunteers...
Bro heading to Oz: he's flown off to further his education. maybe him not being in Singapore will hit me later. i have a feeling it will. I usually dun miss ppl, but I think i will for him.
Marcus is one of the rare persons who will really listen without judging. Well not all the times...but we've been each other's Aunt Aggy for quite a stretch of time...he's not actually my blood bro, but although that being said, there is an underlining connection we have.
Being telepathic on a certain degree-thinking of the same thoughts...suddenly humming the same song etc... The only other person who is so connected to me would be my real bro Shaun.
I think him not being here will definately hit me sooner or later...and there might be no one to turn to...
Letting go of SJAB-I've finally resigned my posts of NHQ CPBS Controller & NHQ Development (CPBS) Committee Secretary. Will be resigning from my position as Dy Zone Youth Affairs as well. I will be for purposes...a officer without duties and portfolio...
Freedom does taste good-not doing anything, not having people depend on you al the time anymore and not having to argue with stupid silly old farts. Waste of my efforts, waste of my time arguing over issues which matter greatly but they seem to take their time to wait and wait and wait. Their reasons being political, petty ans self-serving. Well i've had enough of this organisation. It seems it doesn't value our efforts as volunteers...
Bro heading to Oz: he's flown off to further his education. maybe him not being in Singapore will hit me later. i have a feeling it will. I usually dun miss ppl, but I think i will for him.
Marcus is one of the rare persons who will really listen without judging. Well not all the times...but we've been each other's Aunt Aggy for quite a stretch of time...he's not actually my blood bro, but although that being said, there is an underlining connection we have.
Being telepathic on a certain degree-thinking of the same thoughts...suddenly humming the same song etc... The only other person who is so connected to me would be my real bro Shaun.
I think him not being here will definately hit me sooner or later...and there might be no one to turn to...
Sunday, June 18, 2006
The Part Me trying to Update this blog...
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finally, i get a saturday all to myself. no SJAB, no work threatening to drop onto my head and no worries about the exams.
workwise: things are going well. doing my best to avoid getting swarmped with work and settling issues fast. hopefully i can keep the pace up and not let anyone down. now shifting focus from operations to chartering and market evaluation...
SJAB's Chief Commissioner Badge Presentation Ceremony is coming up soon. have spent time organinising the event with my fellow officers and hopefully-all will go well. 250 prize recipients will be attending and phew thankfully its just a simple event.
am trying my best NOT to do this: falling in love with love itself. meaning the in love with the idea of falling in love. confusing-? should be...ought to be. oh i so hate this part of myself... sets me thinking that everything will be alright...then BOOM...it all turns out wrong. i hate myself for feeling this way...sometimes i think...why i even bother - sigh...
finally, i get a saturday all to myself. no SJAB, no work threatening to drop onto my head and no worries about the exams.
workwise: things are going well. doing my best to avoid getting swarmped with work and settling issues fast. hopefully i can keep the pace up and not let anyone down. now shifting focus from operations to chartering and market evaluation...
SJAB's Chief Commissioner Badge Presentation Ceremony is coming up soon. have spent time organinising the event with my fellow officers and hopefully-all will go well. 250 prize recipients will be attending and phew thankfully its just a simple event.
am trying my best NOT to do this: falling in love with love itself. meaning the in love with the idea of falling in love. confusing-? should be...ought to be. oh i so hate this part of myself... sets me thinking that everything will be alright...then BOOM...it all turns out wrong. i hate myself for feeling this way...sometimes i think...why i even bother - sigh...
Saturday, April 15, 2006
The Part about Living Life as it Is
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its funny how things all change so fast. one moment i was unemplyed, the next, swamped with work at my 1st permanent job. i've been gainfully employed as a trainee operations specialist in a swedish/norwegian oil tanker management company. prospects are good as the company is making waves in the CPP sector of the oil tanker market. there is so much to learn and do while managing those ships. i'm glad i've had a chance at doing one of the dream jobs i've long wanted. there is a long way more on the journey, this road i'm taking...but i'm glad i took it. gives me a sense of purpose now, other than moping around and feeling hopeless and feeling sorry for myself. and on top of that the perks and remuneration is somewhat better then what my poly classmates/ns batchmates are currently receiving. the tradeoff is that the work is almost 24/7, meaning having to keep tabs on the ships eveyday and the long hours during the weekdays. thankfully i can log on from home to access the company emails during the weekends, and spending half an hour isn't that bad either.
i've left clementi town. i finally did it. i'm wasn't that happy when i did so but i've been wanting to let go for so long now. i used to be unable to do so without a guilty conscience-leaving the kids to their fate etc., but friends have told me, if iwasn't able to take care of myself now, when will i start to? when i'm one foot into the grave perhaps? they were right in a way, i was being used and thrown aside like tissue paper. my junior volunteers all felt the same way-they saw how the school treated me and thus, as a result, did not want to volunteer like i did.
this 'letting go' has been somewhat of a bittersweet release for me. but i've begun to savour it. savour it and embraced it like a long lost lover-the freedom which i yearned for, without the incessant need to take care of a bunch of ungrateful teenagers, have finally intoxicated me. i felt a great burden finally lifted of my shoulders at long last. now at sjab nhq, the work being offered there is less taxing and i'm working with a bunch of dedicated, committed, like-minded fellow volunteers...not teachers, not cadets, but my fellow volunteer officers. the good thing is that we're all tuned to the same frequency and thats doing something for the benefit of the whole brigade in general.
its funny how things all change so fast. one moment i was unemplyed, the next, swamped with work at my 1st permanent job. i've been gainfully employed as a trainee operations specialist in a swedish/norwegian oil tanker management company. prospects are good as the company is making waves in the CPP sector of the oil tanker market. there is so much to learn and do while managing those ships. i'm glad i've had a chance at doing one of the dream jobs i've long wanted. there is a long way more on the journey, this road i'm taking...but i'm glad i took it. gives me a sense of purpose now, other than moping around and feeling hopeless and feeling sorry for myself. and on top of that the perks and remuneration is somewhat better then what my poly classmates/ns batchmates are currently receiving. the tradeoff is that the work is almost 24/7, meaning having to keep tabs on the ships eveyday and the long hours during the weekdays. thankfully i can log on from home to access the company emails during the weekends, and spending half an hour isn't that bad either.
i've left clementi town. i finally did it. i'm wasn't that happy when i did so but i've been wanting to let go for so long now. i used to be unable to do so without a guilty conscience-leaving the kids to their fate etc., but friends have told me, if iwasn't able to take care of myself now, when will i start to? when i'm one foot into the grave perhaps? they were right in a way, i was being used and thrown aside like tissue paper. my junior volunteers all felt the same way-they saw how the school treated me and thus, as a result, did not want to volunteer like i did.
this 'letting go' has been somewhat of a bittersweet release for me. but i've begun to savour it. savour it and embraced it like a long lost lover-the freedom which i yearned for, without the incessant need to take care of a bunch of ungrateful teenagers, have finally intoxicated me. i felt a great burden finally lifted of my shoulders at long last. now at sjab nhq, the work being offered there is less taxing and i'm working with a bunch of dedicated, committed, like-minded fellow volunteers...not teachers, not cadets, but my fellow volunteer officers. the good thing is that we're all tuned to the same frequency and thats doing something for the benefit of the whole brigade in general.
Saturday, January 07, 2006
The Part about....Multiple Parts....
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I've officially ORDed from NS on 22nd December 2005. Funny though, doesn't make much of a difference. Everyone keeps saying that MINDEF gave me back my freedom as a Chrismas present, but I'd beg to differ. Soon, I'll be working and then I'll cry my 'loss' of freedom due to work.
Been for a few job interviews already. Previously I'd screwed up my 1st 2 interviews, realising that I should be marketing and 'selling' myself, I bucked up and got myself placed for a few more interviews, even to firms which were not hiring at the moment. One was however, willing to create a post for me-so thus, perhaps I scored on that point. However, the drive to excel and find that dream 1st job has drained. Though I've been lucky to garner a few, it seems that for some reason, I'm starting to get depressed...again...perhaps my self esteem and confidence took a nose dive then I've posted applications and emails to at least 80+ companies and only a few were willing to interview me. A few were decent to at least reply my email saying that they had
no vacancies. It irks me to find that certain companies are just downright rude and aren't being civil.
Christmas & New Year has come and past. While I'm writing this, I certainly feel consigned to my fate. I'm certainly loved and blessed to have my family and a few friends (old and relatively new) , namely, Justin, Norain, Marcus, Simon, Siti, Cliff, Colin, who have given me so much encouragement. If you guys are reading this, I just wanna say thanks for lifting me up. =) Esp, Justin & Norain, we had a great time on that 1st day Monday of the new year.
SJAB wise, I've handed my appointment of Corps Officer in Charge to one of my 2 teachers in CTSS. Think she'll do a great job with all the assistacne from the kids. I've done my part for the past 7 years? (1999 to 2005) and its time for a change in leadership. I can't remain relevant to the kids anymore since I can't be present at their instructional meetings most of the time and thus have relagated myself as the unit advisor. I've however, expanded my unofficial portfolio at NHQ, with me and Colin processing the entire Brigade's CPBS. A feat to accomplish considering we have to takre care of our careers, own units anf the Zone. Hopefully, we'll get more help soon.
I've officially ORDed from NS on 22nd December 2005. Funny though, doesn't make much of a difference. Everyone keeps saying that MINDEF gave me back my freedom as a Chrismas present, but I'd beg to differ. Soon, I'll be working and then I'll cry my 'loss' of freedom due to work.
Been for a few job interviews already. Previously I'd screwed up my 1st 2 interviews, realising that I should be marketing and 'selling' myself, I bucked up and got myself placed for a few more interviews, even to firms which were not hiring at the moment. One was however, willing to create a post for me-so thus, perhaps I scored on that point. However, the drive to excel and find that dream 1st job has drained. Though I've been lucky to garner a few, it seems that for some reason, I'm starting to get depressed...again...perhaps my self esteem and confidence took a nose dive then I've posted applications and emails to at least 80+ companies and only a few were willing to interview me. A few were decent to at least reply my email saying that they had
no vacancies. It irks me to find that certain companies are just downright rude and aren't being civil.
Christmas & New Year has come and past. While I'm writing this, I certainly feel consigned to my fate. I'm certainly loved and blessed to have my family and a few friends (old and relatively new) , namely, Justin, Norain, Marcus, Simon, Siti, Cliff, Colin, who have given me so much encouragement. If you guys are reading this, I just wanna say thanks for lifting me up. =) Esp, Justin & Norain, we had a great time on that 1st day Monday of the new year.
SJAB wise, I've handed my appointment of Corps Officer in Charge to one of my 2 teachers in CTSS. Think she'll do a great job with all the assistacne from the kids. I've done my part for the past 7 years? (1999 to 2005) and its time for a change in leadership. I can't remain relevant to the kids anymore since I can't be present at their instructional meetings most of the time and thus have relagated myself as the unit advisor. I've however, expanded my unofficial portfolio at NHQ, with me and Colin processing the entire Brigade's CPBS. A feat to accomplish considering we have to takre care of our careers, own units anf the Zone. Hopefully, we'll get more help soon.
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